Well I was hoping to make today a good day, especially with how perfect the weather was earlier. I went out, met my mom for lunch, and then it started raining. I've been trying to let the stress roll off my back because I'm starting to feel overwhelmed with trying to figure out my financial aid for school. So I figured getting out of the house would makes things a little better and allow me to relax. It was perfect, until it started to downpour and of course I didn't bring a jacket or an umbrella with me.
After I got home, I was very DISPLEASED to find that my sister didn't take care of the dogs and look after them like I had told her and asked her to do. I walked through the front door just to find out that I had to clean up after both of the little ones and then they were all driving me crazy. Once she came downstairs, I confronted her about it, and she started feeding me this bullshit excuse about how she only came home to build her new bed and nothing else, not even to look after the dogs. I just don't get how she thinks that she can get away with not doing anything but what she wants to do. This is something that greatly frustrates me, and I know I overreact sometimes. I just feel like my parents expect different things out of the two of us, which doesn't seem fair to be because most of the burden falls on me. I know that my parents always say that there isn't a difference in how they treat us, but I feel like there is. I feel like she can get away with everything, and when I go out to do something for myself and to get out of the house, I get blamed as to why I have to clean up after the dogs and everything else. Of course, I can't go and tell either one of my parents because they'll call me ridiculous and think I'm overreacting. I just wish that they could look at the situations through my eyes and truly understand how it makes me feel when they do that.
Like they went and bought her a $500 bed, and she had to contribute NOTHING to that purchase. The only thing she did buy was the paint, and I even think that it's crap that she was allowed to go ahead and do all of this because I've wanted to paint my room for YEARS and I was always told no and that it shouldn't matter what color my room was because I'd be moving out in a few years anyway. She can get away with everything, shut everything out, and not feel any of the consequences of what comes from it. She thinks just because she works and goes to school that she doesn't have to contribute to the house at all expect if it pertains to her. I just want everyone to understand where I'm coming from and to stop thinking that I'm just doing all of this for attention or think I'm crazy for feeling the way that I do.
